HNT..... sort of

OK, I just made it under the wire to make this post still on Thursday - but with a catch. The pictures I took the other day of llama after our session are stuck on the camera. I'm not sure what the problem is - if it's in the camera or the computer. Either way, I can't download them at the moment. So, you'll all have to wait until I can figure out the problem to see them.

Instead, I am putting up some pictures I have in my photo collection. Enjoy!

Out of sorts

llama has been out of sorts. It's not a sudden occurence - it's been building. It's my fault. My schedule has not allowed us to enjoy the wonderful, regular, hard-core sessions we had in the past. The price of success, I suppose.

She's a pain slut, she knows it. I know it. She loves to be spanked and hurt, used and abused. We did this on a regular basis. Lately, there hasn't been the time. When there is the time, one or both of us is usually too tired. It's a double-edged sword. How do you give the one you love what you know she needs and desires when you simply can't find the time or the energy? You make the time.

Yesterday I had the morning free at home, so did llama. We agreed it was time to get back in the swing of things. We also agreed that we needed to start back slow, it's been well over a month since any serious play. Her pain tolerance has dropped to near-record lows.

She was also apprehensive. Not about us, her desires, or the actual play. She voiced a real, valid & justifiable concern to me. She was afraid if we started back up again after our circumstance-induced hiatus, that we wouldn't continue on a regular basis. She was afraid that she would get back into sub-space, then experience sub-drop again. I had not fully appreciated that she had gotten that far out of sorts. My intuition and vibes are off. I need to work on that some more.

We talked about it, I promised her that we would find the time, no matter what. I will do whatever I have to do to give her what she needs and desires, and deliver these things when needed and in a timely manner. It will take time and work, no question. I know that she is worth it, as well as our happiness in our sessions.

We did play for a few hours yesterday morning, llama getting marked in several ways and locations in the process, as well as multiple well-needed orgasms for her. It's a starting point for us, and we will build from there. Look for a HNT post tomorrow of some of my handy work on my dearest llama.

Please Help!

It's too funny, I couldn't resist......

HNT

Last week, llama had the pleasure of being roughed up. We had the opportunity to have some alone time, and the sex turned rough. The more things progressed, the more she begged me to get harder and rougher with her, and inflict additional pain upon her. The following are sample of the results as visible the next morning.

Mine

Things have quieted back down. Life has picked up the pace once again, as it always happens. There have been some light scenes, mostly Master spanking me, pulling my hair, and slapping my face before and during sex.

It does the job of keeping me in my place for the most part. I always feel so much better afterwards, my mind so clear and focused, and serving Master comes as naturally as breathing.

Master and I agreed last night as I was laying in bed, that we need to find time to do a scene. I'm getting that itch, that want and need to have Master tease me, hurt me, pleasure me, and use me...All at the same time.

Who says slaves are needy?

Scenes are also very reassuring to me. They tell me that Master still loves this lifestyle, that He's still pleased with me (even though He'd let me know if He wasn't), and that we still have our deep connection.

As of late, things have been going fairly well except for what my intuition is picking up. I have a very good sense of intuition. Master, family, and friends will attest to this fact. I get the sense that something isn't quite right with Master and I've pinned it down to the fact that He's not happy with something and feels almost stuck; there's nothing He can do to improve the situation. I just can't figure out what the situation is although I have a fairly good idea.

I haven't even brought this up to Master yet. I almost don't want to waste His time by asking. We have little time for such trivial questions as He's busy with work, even when He's home. There are just better things to talk about. Hopefully we'll find some time in the near future to do a good scene before that time of the month hits.

I'm trying to make time to update more often. I'm trying to update about the other aspects of our relationship and not just the sex (although that's usually the most fun to write and read about).

I hope everyone is doing well!